Rainy Day

Today is such a rainy day. Right now, Emily is napping and Sam is playing the Wii---he is quite good at it and his favorite game is Mario Kart! When he puts his mind to it and pays attention he can come in 1st place---but half the time, he fools around and drives off a cliff or just does whatever :) haha. Silly boy. There is really not a lot to do on a rainy day! I suppose later we will all venture out to Walmart or somewhere to grab a few needed things- and rent a movie tonight- nothing exciting. Sam has been quite the little handful today--no sugar or caffine, yet he was bouncing off walls, getting in trouble and just being wild--yet, dad wants to have him formally tested for ADHD--when we all know he has it. Oh well- Monday they are supposed to call and get us a date for the appointment testing...so, hopefully that will come soon!

WOW- has it been THAT long????

oh my gosh- has it really been almost 2 years since I posted on this sweet boy's blog? wow- can we say a bit pre-occupied with life? LOL- no worries, I still do some writing in his journal at home. So- in two years, what has changed- wow, tons! Sam is almost 6! I cannot believe this baby of mine starts school this year and is no longer a baby! Man, how I miss him being so little! He is now fearless-he protects me. When I see a bug or a mouse, this boy watches out for his mama. He won't let anything get me. He is my hero! But, again- he is fearless- climbing trees, jumping off the top bunk, riding bikes in the street-things that make me nervous! And he is all BOY- the other day he was caught outside with his pawpaw Lane's pocket knife-he had to cut a limb for his treehouse he says- but he snuck that out, so daddy had to take it away. He also has a bb gun from his pawpaw Lane and for the first time ever, he got to shoot it this week and loved it. He got to shoot some cans with his daddy. Again- things that make me nervous!!! Sam is also ADHD. Doctor's appointment on Monday confirmed Sam had all 10 of the 10 points they look for in ADHD kids. But, we choose further testing to confirm before we begin meds. It makes me sad that all these times I have fussed at him and lost my patience- he cannot help it for the most part. Hopefully before school beings we can get this taken care of and get him on the correct meds. I want him to be able to do his very best in school because he has a bright future ahead of him. Hopefully mommy can write in the blog a little more- I just have to remember to do it! Kinda like my scrapbooking that has really gotten behind! Anyway- i love my sweet little boy, even though now that sweet little boy is a hyperactive, crazy, fearless, big kid now.

Finally a big brother!

Sam's little sister was born on 4/21/07. He loves her so much. I don't think I have ever seen a child love a sibling so much at only 3 years old. He is just enthrawled with her. He loves to hold her and kiss on her and hug her. If she cries he talks to her letting her know it't ok, because big brother is there with her. It is just too sweet. He has not once shown any type of jealousy towards her or tried to be mean to her or anything. He just purely loves his sister. He is a wonderful brother. Such a big help in getting things we may need for her, like a bib, or diaper or whatever we may need...he will glady go get it. I cannot wait until she is a little bigger to where she can sit and play with him and they can laugh together. I have the two most wonderful children in the world. I wouldn't trade them for anything. I see them together and I am just in love.

When I look into your eyes....

I see my future.
I see the innocence of a child.
I see the amazement and wonders when you are seeing something for the first time.
I see now how much my parents love me.
I see the potential you will have in life.
I see a child who loves to splash in puddles when it rains.
I see a child who likes to dig for worms.
I still see that tiny newborn I held for the first time so many years ago.
I want to cry because my heart cannot contain the love and the joy of being your mother.
I forget all of my worries.
I forget what a bad place this world can be.
I see a child who will never have to go hungry.
I see a caring little boy who comforts me when I cry.
I see the life that I would gladly give mine for without hesitation.
I see me and your daddy and our love for each other.

What a goofy boy!

See no evil, hear no evil, speak no evil....such a silly little boy!

Such a long time!

Wow, it has been months since poor Sam's site has been updated. I guess I have really been busy lately! Samuel is getting so big and so smart. He is so very excited about his new sister and cannot wait for her to be born. I have never met a child who is so excited and protective and concerned with a baby that has not even been born yet. He really is so sweet. We are all getting ready for the holidays, as Christmas in in only 4 more days! Wow. Sam is excited about the gifts under the tree and even more excited to know that Santa will visit him Sunday night while he sleeps. Sam is doing good in school...he has his bad days like any other kid..ok, maybe a few more than any other kid it seems, but he is just a typical boy who is 3. So, he likes to throw rocks out to the parking lot, and eat sand..ok, and throw sand..ah, the joys of a boy. But, I have to say, the past few days his teacher tells me he has been having really good days. Which makes me glad! I love him so much, he is so fun to talk to and he will say the funniest things. He is such a witty little guy, just like his mommy. He makes my day and everytime I pick him up in the afternoons, he spots me and comes running, shouting "mommy, mommy, mommy". How can that not make you feel good about life?! On another note now, Sam and I love to go to Starbucks some mornings and get a mocha and a Blueberry scone..or, as Sam calls is a Bueberry Cone. He loves them. When he wakes up he asks.."Can we get a hot mocha and a bueberry cone today mommy"-how can you tell him no?! See why I had to ask for gift cards for Starbucks! Sam loves the White Chocolate Mocha, just like me so when I get one, I always share with him, though he ends up drinking most of it..again, see why I asked for gift cards from everyone! I have to support mine and my son's habit! But, what an oh so good habit to have!

You're gonna be a what?

A big brother!!!!!!!!!!!!
That's right...Sam is going to be a big brother. See his debut April of 2007!

Wake up call

Last night Sam woke me and his daddy up at about 3 am. The reason? There was no bad dream, no monster, no bathroom trip to make...he simply woke up and wanted a hug from each of us. Now if that is not the best wake up call, I don't know what is! Ok, so after the hug he also decided he wanted coffee. Yes coffee. He loves to take sips of mine...ok, though it is decaf coffee now..so who cares! He finally went back to sleep after me and Tim having to explain that it was not time to get up and mommy was not going to make coffee at 3am for anyone! So, this morning when I woke him up to get ready, I told him I had made coffee...but, noooo, he did not want it now..and I made extra just for him this morning! Oh well. More for me I guess! Tonight is the opening day of the fair...read my post on the fair from last year if you haven't read it before. We are taking him again to the filthy melting pot of rednecks, carnies and people we know (haha) so that he can ride some rides, get all tired and ill and sticky from head to toe with cotton candy and eat a corn dog that is about as long as his arm. Ah the fair, you have to love it really. The smells of Marlboro and Cotton Candy and Candy apples fill the air, along with body odor and hot dogs...but it is just a smell you miss when it is gone. Once a year you get to go and eat what you want, eat things you just don't get all the time...like those 3 feet corn dogs, or deep fried anything..or chicken pie. Samuel is so excited to go, even though I am not sure he remembers what the fair is. He just knows if he is good at school today, he gets to go and ride some rides and see some fireworks! And that is all that he cares about! So anyway, today is a good day, what better way than to start the day with a wake up call from my baby just to get a hug from me and daddy. You can't ask for anything better.

Sam's thoughts on possibly having another baby

So, we have been talking a bit about having another baby. I have been talking to Sam about it too, because I want him to understand it all and go ahead and prepare him now so that he knows what is going on when the time comes. So, me and him talk about it often. I was talking to him this morning and here is how the conversation went:
me: So, Sam do you want mommy to have another baby
sam: but I'm your baby mommy
me: yes, pumpkin you are...ok, then do you want mommy to have another baby in her belly?
sam: yeah, in your belly, a little boy.
me: what if it is a girl?
sam: no, it's a boy
me: what would you name it if we had a boy?
sam: boy
me: ok, what if it is a girl
sam: I will name her boy too!
me: What would you do if the baby was crying?
sam: give him medicine so he will feel better and not cry for his mommy and daddy
me: would you help feed him and change him and play with him?
sam: we would be best buddies and I will be his daddy.
me: anything else?
sam: I liked those pancakes this morning..and I won't hit at school today
me: way to change the subject!